Dreaming Big

Like most girls I've dreamed of being a mom one day.  Longed to know what it feels like to have a baby growing inside you.  Wished for the day I'd open the door to my nursery and see a little head pop up and smile at me from it's morning nap knowing I was it's mom. 

I think it all started when I started baby sitting.  Seeing how fun and exciting little babies can be.  Of course my dreams always included the perfect husband with a nice 3 bedroom house and room in the backyard for a swing set.  As I've gotten older I wondered if that was the way it would happen for me.  I worried that I wouldn't meet Mr. Right soon enough for us to have the 2 kids I've dreamed about.  I always told myself that if I wasn't married by 38 that I'd do it on my own.  I even started a secret savings fund just in case.  Well I'm not quite 38 and my savings fund is not as big as I'd hoped it would be but here I am on the cusp of 30 and pregnant with my first child.  No I don't have that 3 bedroom house I dreamed about but I think my little condo is going to be just perfect.  I'm sure Mr. Right will come along one of these days but for now I'm focusing on Lil Bit.